This DS106 audio assignment required a story to be told with a poem. I strayed a bit by reading a parable rather than a poem to get my desired effect. I think the trade-off was well worth it.
Here is my story of grief and inspiration for my digital storytelling focal theme.
My exploration of grief began on December 20, 2014, when my mother went into the doctor to have mysterious bumps appearing along her jawline and neck checked. The doctor said it was probably just inflamed lymph nodes, so we gave it a couple weeks until more bumps developed. After the next two bumps surfaced, she went to the emergency room, where the CAT scan showed growths in her lymph nodes, lungs, breast, and some of the bones in her left hip and leg.
We couldn’t get into to see the specialist until after the new year.
Finally, on January 5, 2015, she was diagnosed with adenocarcinoma of unknown source. Riddled with cancer, my mother decided to try chemotherapy. Needless to say, it was very hard on her. By the time the next dose of chemo was due, three weeks later, my mother said, “It’s time for me to go Home girls.” That was one of the hardest things I have even had to hear.
From there she was able to stay in her home while being cared for by a hospice nurse, my sister, and I care for her in her final days. From the time she came home January 30, 2015 my mother began to actively die. She passed in her own home on February 11, 2015.
I cannot think of a more horrific, yet beautiful experience. Even though my heart was being put through a meat grinder, I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I ensured my sweet mother died with the dignity she deserved.
I was numb for about three months after that. If you asked me what I was working on, I couldn’t tell you. I put on a good face and kept showing up at work every day. Luckily, I had a great support system around me, which included a grief group, a swim team, a therapist, and a mentorship group from church.
When summer rolled around, it was time to begin pursuing my masters in eLearning at CU Denver. A co-worker suggested Digital Storytelling because he thought the professor was phenomenal. Class began and I was asked me to pick something that I was passionate about for my focal theme.
I knew grief.
That is how I arrived at my digital storytelling portfolio on exploring grief. It has been an awesome, healing journey and I hope it helps those navigating grief in their lives.